I don't know how many times I've begun to write this, or how many times I will begin again. It's always been my intention to have my own site. I've done it a couple of times, but it's never felt real. It's always been on a subdomain like .wordpress.com. Which somehow always seemed fake to me. As if it was someone else's website, and I was just borrowing it (which was true to point).

Now I want to do it for real. When I started, I looked to other writers' sites for inspiration. This only caused more confusion. At this point I could launch into a diatribe about the benefits and problems with each various CMS, but I'll save that for another day. This is about something different.

It's about whether or not I will be too afraid to take a chance. Shawn Blanc has been a hero of mine. I enjoy his work, and support him when I can. He said something on his Shawn Today podcast that has stuck with me for a while now.

Before he became a father this last year, he knew he wanted to teach his kids a lesson about courage. He wanted them to have a role model that was willing to take chances, and not always play it safe. To let his kids know that they could take chances and be successful.

I'm beginning to feel that for far too long now I've been playing it safe. I've stayed quiet when I should have spoken up. I've not seized opportunities even though I've been waiting for them. I'm tired of playing it safe. I'm ready to take a risk. It might be the phase of life I'm in causing this, but so be it.

I can't be sure I'll always have something to say here, but If I've learned anything over the past few months, it's that I'll never find out unless I try.